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Here's What Inspired Me to Vlog Instead of Worrying About Dying.

By Zonk 2 min read

Summary

I headed out for a much-needed haircut and used the drive to talk about something heavy that’s been on my mind for most of 2025: death. It started with a close friend being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, which stirred up the grief from losing another friend about ten years ago, right after he turned 40. Then my wife Rachel was diagnosed with stage two breast cancer, and that was when it really hit home that we’re all here on borrowed time, even the people closest to me. I know death is a reality. I’m just paralyzed by it, and that fear bleeds into my family life and my work.

The turning point came when Adam the Woo passed away, just as Rachel was nearing the end of her treatments. I wasn’t a longtime follower, but I watched his last video and realized he had no idea what was coming. What struck me wasn’t sadness at first, but recognition: here was someone with interests just like mine who recorded his everyday life and left behind an archive, a legacy. I can’t live the way he did with my job, kids and obligations, but I can document my life in my own way.

So that’s why I’m here. I’d rather focus on living than worry about dying, and I’d love for my kids to someday enjoy even the most mundane parts of my life on video. I’m sitting at a whopping six subscribers, so if you want to be number seven, it could be you. The video ends with a lighter moment, as Rachel gives my fresh Supercuts haircut a very enthusiastic thumbs up.

Key Points

  • Death has weighed on me through 2025, from a friend’s pancreatic cancer to Rachel’s stage two breast cancer diagnosis
  • I don’t want to stay paralyzed by fear of losing the people I love
  • Adam the Woo’s last video and his legacy of archiving his daily life inspired me to start vlogging
  • I want my kids to be able to see and enjoy even the mundane parts of my life someday
  • I’m choosing to live instead of worry, and I’m at six subscribers, so number seven could be you

This post was automatically generated from my YouTube video. Watch above or view directly on YouTube.

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